Wednesday, May 21, 2014

AUSTRALIA MELBOURNE MISSION reporting Sept. 24, 2014 ENGLISH SPEAKING!!!!!!!!!

Can you believe it????  That is where he wanted to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will report later about the whole day:):)
I just went to the mailbox and .......IT'S HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I pray I can resist opening it up. lol.  What a perfect day for this to come!!  The Lord is truly mindful of his children.  Chris will be here for all the tears of joy and yelling and screaming with excitement.!!!  I can't stop crying.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Yesterday, was a crazy day.  From 2:30 to 9:00 different people kept coming through the house.  We had the nurse three times come.  She checked his pump.  Then came back to adjust the new amount to what the doctor decided.  And then she brought (it's hard to say or type...) depends, sheet protectors, gloves, bed pan, urinal, and a catheter.  We also got a tall toilet seat with handle bars on the side.  We had two delivers of different meds.  Which came because the pharmacy didn't get the word that Chris was no longer going to take ANY pills orally (steroid, lorazapam, sleeping pills etc).  they hurt his stomach to much.  No more lovenox shots.  The right side of his chest is swollen.  Yesterday, he only had a yogurt and water.  He is only drinking water because his mouth is dry.  Today, he has eaten nothing.  He says that he's not hungry and that he isn't going to eat anything ever again.  He would like to go.  He said that tomorrow is his last "hip hip hooray" 
Tomorrow, Chris wants to just say the first ordinance part and then grandpa Wach will finish with the blessing. 
I found out from a "little bird" that Ryan's papers are somewhere in the mail system!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The call has been issued.  Just maybe tomorrow!!  Wouldn't that just be crazy to get tomorrow???!!!  Two amazing, wonderful things happening and so many of you to be there to share it with (then you only have to come my way once - lol)  Don't worry will get it on here as fast as we can.  It might just be a one-liner until I have time to write more:)  Check face book also if you are one of my friends. 

This morning (4:30am-5:40) Chris and I hung out.  He had gone to use the restroom before but gotten hurt on the way back to bed.  I came in to check on him.  He was in tons of pain and just wanted me to hold his hand (after I warmed it up:) I always have cold hands).  I asked him if he wanted to hear Meg's email.  He of course said "yes"  I read him Meg's and then 4 other missionaries that we receive emails from.  Even though it was early.  It was very nice just to spend time with him. 
I'm not sure what happened to the social worker last night.  She never showed up.  Making me a little cranky because I had stressed about dessert, preparing a lesson because Chris didn't feel well enough to do it and if I had known that she wasn't coming I could have taken Katie to the party store to get her bday invitations etc.  Chris hasn't done the books and I'm pretty sure that he isn't going to get them done:(  Oh, well. 

At 6:20 am the phone rings in the kitchen.  It's Chris:)  Rye had left his phone in the bedroom with Chris and the alarm for him to get up had gone off.  Chris had tried to call and text me on my cell phone but it was on silence. lol. so he did the next best thing to wake me up hee, hee.  Call the house phone.  It woke me right up:)  so, as you can see it has already been an exciting day.  I really need to go and get a Dr. Pepper from Maverick - where they have the best cubed ice:):)
Tonight, Ma and Pa Wach arrive, the boys have scouts and haircuts for everyone!!
Tomorrow, is of course Katie's bday.  She drew me a picture of how she wanted the outside of the house decorated for her bday!!:)  We have a tradition that on your bday you get lunch from anywhere brought to you at school (I'm thinking Chick fil A - lol).  I'm not sure what I was thinking but Jacob has an appointment with the foot doctor at 1:30 tomorrow.  His big toe has been really hurting him and the big toe that had its toenail ripped off last year (by a treadmill) is growing back all bumpy and gross.  Who knows maybe they will rip it off again! ahhh.  Don't forget if your bday is in May go to the Chick fil A in Jordan Landing (and bring some proof) and receive a free combo meal.  That's what we're doing for dinner tomorrow night:)
Love, Ricki

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Tuesday May 13th (I'm just now finishing - sorry)
The day that Chris was suppose to get the catheter the nurse accidently brought the wrong one so Chris decided to just wait til the following day to have it done.  But..... he slept so well in his new bed, and can get out of his bed much easier decided that he didn't want the catheter yet.  He also decided to wait on the pump (which they can put in his port - it will just be hard to shower etc).  They also brought him an air mattress.  It's a very cool air mattress!  It has "bubbles" that inflate and deflate all over the body.  The machine makes a lot of noise but it has made a world of difference for Chris and his pain.  He is still at a 10 if you ask him (10 being the worst) but he looked much more comfortable:) Rye was so kind and the evening the bed came I was running around and he decided on his own to move are very big, very heavy bed against the window.  He had to move the night stand and a lot of "stuff" hee, hee.  He also vacuumed and helped the man bring in the pieces of the bed.
It was very touching to me.
Katie had her interview with the Bishop and he suggested that we have Katie baptized on her bday.  So, Katie is now being baptized on her bday which is next Wednesday, May 21st.  I feel like I might be putting to much pressure on Ryan by having him do both.  I feel good about having Ryan baptize her and if Chris is feeling up to it confirm her.  If not we will ask Chris' dad to do it.  Will wait on the Eagle.  I'm not sure if I can get that much done in such a short time:)

Last night the social worker came over and talked with all of us.  Chris didn't want to get out of bed so we all squeezed in are room.  She brought a book for each of the kids that Chris is suppose to read and record his voice on.  She asked each of the kids how they are doing.  Jacob started to cry and Katie looked sad and then went out to play. lol. Chris invited her to have family home evening with us next Monday.  Also, the Stake President came over and visited with Chris. He asked Chris "who will be there to greet you?"  We all started crying.
Sunday, May 18th
Friday, Rye went to his Senior Dinner Dance, Jacob went on a scout overnighter and the rest of us went to one of Chris' old friends house for another get together (a much better one -he's a doctor and has a POOL!)  Chris had a hard time.  The car ride home and back were the worst.  We just couldn't find him a comfortable spot.  His left leg is so swollen and his right leg is a twig.  He laid down on the couch to rest and then couldn't get back up.  He asked me to pick him up:(:(  Yep, I'm crying.  I put my arms around his back and pulled him up (he doesn't weigh much) and got him to standing so he could use his walker to get to the garage door.  He cried on are way home because he's pretty sure that, that was his last outing.  It just hurt way to much.
At Ryan's Senior Dinner Dance out of 633 seniors Ryan won the award "Biggest flirt" lol.  I told him it was a compliment:)  He also did something very daring that Chris nor I would have ever done.  He wrote a speech and then went in front of 10 teachers (he didn't know any of them) and read it.  He was auditioning to give the graduation speech.  They only have 2 slots (one boy, one girl).  Poor Rye didn't make it but when I have time I will type it here.  It was sooo amazing!!  Chris and I cried.  He did such a wonderful job!  We were so proud of him.  He has grown sooo much this year!  And no he hasn't received his mission call yet!!  It's killing me to go to the mailbox each day!!!

Saturday, the nurse came and put the morphine pump into Chris' port.  I am sooo happy that he can now sleep through the night.  He doesn't have to wake up every 3 hours to take pills.  Pills that upset his stomach. He can hit the morphine button every 10 minutes for an extra dose if he wants. The nurse suggested that he hit the button every time he needs to get up. The nurse had all of us come and learn how to use the pump and if it beeps what to look for and how to fix it.  Weird to have everyone learning how to take care of their fathers pump.  But if I'm not home and it starts beeping it's a good thing to know. Every night he says "Good bye, I hope I don't see you in the morning"  I'm sad for him when he wakes up.  He is so ready to go. When he talks like that I cry and tell him that it's ok.  That we will be excited to think of him the way he looked a year ago.  That we can see him laughing and smiling.  Running.  Standing tall without pain.  He is in sooo much pain.  The left side of his body is swollen and every day he discovers new tumors.  His stomach hurts so bad on the outside (and inside) from putting on and taking off fentanyl patches and giving himself lovenox shots ( he has done lovenox shots for 5 years).

His father gave him a father's blessing a few weeks ago when they were here and in that blessing he was told what he would be doing in the Spirit World.  Chris has always loved children.  Always made them feel like they can do anything, that they are loved.  He was told that he would be spending time with the children.  For those of you who have lost a child. I like to imagine that  my Chrissee will be there with them till your turn on earth ends.  I can't think of a more wonderful person to take care of them! (I tell you this because I haven't had time to write it in my journal and I never want to forget it)  This all feels so hard and yet when things like that are heard how can I be so heart broken to lose him?  It is going to be wayyy hard.  But watching him suffer has been the worst thing ever.  He is trying so hard to not do the catheter because he doesn't want me to have to take care of it.  or the other issue:(  I keep telling him "that it's alright.  he would do the same for me.  and that he is my best friend I'd do anything for him."  When he was talking about this with the nurse he laughed and told him that he worries because  he knows me.... he knows.....when are kids had diarrhea he took care of them.  He washed out their underwear - I threw it in the garbage while dry heaving and trying really hard not to throw up.   So, he worries about me:)   
When we came home from church today my sweet neighbor to the north was mowing are lawn.  He had edged next to the sidewalk, edged around the trees and fence etc.  It looked beautiful.  We don't have an edger so even when we mow the lawn it doesn't look as beautiful as he made it look.  I was going to mow it Monday morning but him doing it made my list shorter and it's not my favorite thing to do.  I'd rather be in the house watching tv eating bon bons:)
It's going to be an exciting week Katie will be baptized May 21st by Ryan and will be confirmed by either Chris or his dad.  Chris' bday is the 22nd.  And.....hopefully the mission call comes!!:) I feel so grateful.  Maybe a little overwhelmed.  But for sure grateful.  We have so many wonderful things happening because of the choices that are children have made.  Meg on a mission, Rye about to go on a mission, graduating from seminary and high school.  Lately, I have been thinking about when rye was first put into my arms.  Thinking of all the things I hoped for him.  18 years later he hasn't disappointed me.  I am a very, very proud mother - grateful mother.  This life is tough.  Choosing the right is sometimes hard.  Satan works so hard to destroy each of us.  I just feel so grateful to be able to enjoy these precious moments.  How hard Rye has worked to get through high school and all of the temptations that he has had to face but chose to choose the right.  I will probably be crying for the next few weeks. Ok maybe months:)
Again I want to say thank you for praying for us, meals, encouraging words, Dr. Pepper, service rendered, and time spent with us.
We love you all so much,
Ricki

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Just a quick update the hospital bed is coming today.  Chris can no longer get in and out of are bed.  It is to tall.  Also, because he can't get out of bed that also means that he will need the assistance of a catheter.  He has also spoken with the nurse about getting a morphine pump.  He is hoping that they can just put it into his port.  His whole left side is swollen.  We knew this time would come.  It just hurts:(
Last night we had a wonderful family home evening.  We went over all the questions that the Bishop might ask Katie in her interview tonight for her baptism.  Chris wanted to do it.  He did a great job.  For dessert we had strawberries "immersed" in chocolate.  The kids loved the "immersion" thing (they got to dip their own).  Chris wanted to do something nice for the bishop so we made his family a plate of them and then took them over (Chris couldn't go up the stairs so the bishop was kind enough to come to the car).  He made a card that went with it - it said "Jesus was baptized by immersion.  The chocolate dipped strawberries reminded me of immersion.  I won't let my hair stick out like the leaves of the strawberry.  I look forward to my interview for baptism.  Love, Katie"
(yep, I'm crying.  I would say that today is going to be a very emotional day).  Which will be May 31st if Chris is still alive (Rye baptize and Chris confirm).  If not it will be June 7th so that Ryan can baptize her and confirm her.  He has to wait til he graduates from high school (June 5) to become an elder. We will also do Tay's Eagle the same day (whichever day that is). 
I am so grateful to have a wonderful husband.  Two weeks in a row he has taught the fhe lesson and the spirit has been so strong during it.  Memories to hold onto forever.
Love,
Ricki
ps I forgot to tell you how Ryan ran a 5k in the cow suit last Friday night.  I was his cow handler and was suppose to "stay" with him.  Even in a cow suit he got way a head of me.  He came in at 22 minutes and I came in at 26.  Thank goodness some other chick fil a employees were there. They ended up helping him get water and take his head off. lol.  Even with atleast an extra 10 lbs and not being able to see much he did an awesome job!!

Friday, May 9, 2014

Yippee Mother's Day is almost here!  We get to talk to Megan at 1:45ish - she said:)  It will be 8:45 pm for her. Her mission president is only allowing phone calls.  No Skype, which is good for me:)   Ryan's big white envelope should be arriving any day.  It would be way cool if it came this week and he opened it with Megan on the phone.  I probably couldn't wait that long and Ryan said that if he gets to the mailbox first he's opening it right then and there.  He's not allowed to go.  I hid the mailbox key. lol. 

It has been a crazy few weeks.  Chris fell down the stairs last week.  The hospice nurse was worried so she came out to look at him.  Nothing broken, just bruised.  He weighs about 120 pounds.  If you take off the weight of the tumors it would be less.  The one in his neck is big and so there is a lot of bruising.  the skin can't be pulled much tighter.  His left leg from the thigh down to his foot is very swollen.  He wears compression socks all the time to try and help the swelling.  I hate to see his foot it is soo big (reminds me of an elephants foot) and the other leg is just a skeleton.  He's not eating much because food doesn't taste anymore.  No flavor.  He has me running different places to get him food but after one bite he doesn't want it because food is no fun without flavor:(  He sleeps a lot during the day.  Most nights are good but he has had a few nights were I want to hang him by his toenails.  He had me take him to Target to get my Mother's Day present.  He got me a new land phone.  The one we had was broken and it made this horrible beeping noise in your ear and ran out of battery really fast.  I make a lot of phone calls for PTA and work so it was a very thoughtful gift:)  The kids are getting used to helping daddy a lot more than they ever had to.  We all take turns.  I am grateful that Chris uses the kids when they are home and me when they aren't.  He usually only gets out of bed to use the restroom.  I did drag him to Sam's club yesterday and that was way hard on both of us.  He had his wheelchair but I can't push the wheelchair and the cart at the same time.  He was very tired.  I had him stay by the door of the store so I could load the car and then I came back for him.  He has had a lot of company lately, which is fun.  Some of his co-workers came over and then Saturday, his friends that he grew up with came over.  They hadn't seen each other for 10-15 years.  It was so fun to see Chris smile.
We love you all and appreciate all that you do for us from prayers to meals (we have amazing cooks all around us!!)  Keep checking back to see where Ryan is going:)  Chris had a dream he was going to the Philippines.  Megan says that he is going to Argentina because all of her comps brothers are there and Ryan wants Texas for the barbecue or Australia for the sexy accent.  Will see soon............
Love ya,
Ricki