Saturday, March 26, 2011

How about a recap of last week?:) Monday, for FHE we went to see Tangled at the dollar movie (comes out this week:). Katie and I have seen it three times. Still love it:)
Tuesday, Jacob and I went to the eye doctor. No glasses for Jacob. We just wanted to make sure that his eyes were OK since when he reads he gets the first part of the word correctly but not the last. Now, we will "keep on him" and have him slow down. Later, Jacob had scouts.
Wednesday, Meg and Rye were suppose to have a track meet but it got cancelled. Tay went to scouts and passed out bags to every home in r neighborhood for the annual scout food drive. We also got to hang out with two of Chris' sisters sons. They came down from Oregon for spring break. It was fun seeing/talking with them. Crazy to remember when they were little, now they are so grown up. We took them out to eat, where they got to see "bad manners." Katie was all over them. They spoiled her with attention. We also had them help us look for trumpets (for Tay) on line. One of them plays the trumpet so I knew he'd be able to help us:) Also found out that one of them is going to BYU Provo this fall just like Meg. So, now Meg knows two people:) (the other is the girl she is rooming with - have to pay that fee next week.)
Thursday, Jacob and Tay had ortho appointments. Rye went to math lab and Meg track practice. I also called about a trumpet I saw on line for $45.00. Called and spoke with owner, asked the questions r nephew told us to ask (big one- "Does it have a mouth piece?" - kind of important:). We decided to go and look at it. I bribed one of Rye's friends who plays the trumpet to come with us (hamburger:). He said it was a good one. We paid for it and left. When we got out to the car Rye's friend said that it was a better one than his. I feel very blessed to have found a trumpet for so little money. Don't know if Tay will stick with it for more than a year but if he quits "no big deal." Tay has had a great time "blowing it." He has done everything Rye's friend said to do to take care of it (including cleaning the mouth piece:) We might have to start lessons before school starts because Tay is so excited. Came home and finished watching BYU game:(
Friday, everyone was home. I took kids to trampoline place for awhile to play. Chris wasn't feeling well so he stayed home. After trampoline place we went to an ice cream shop (Chris met us there) called Sub Zero. They put ingredients that you want in a bowl then add liquid nitrogen to it. Kids loved it. Comes out like Dip-n-Dots. Yum!! Poor Chris still wasn't feeling well so he just watched us:( Chris' shoulders aren't hurting as bad anymore (thank goodness). But he still feels weak and tired. He needs a haircut but says he isn't getting one because he wants to watch it fall out. Rye said that he would shave his head and give Chris his hair so that he could glue it on:) Ahhh.
Saturday, tonight is my last YW broadcast (trying not to cry) for eight years (when Katie turns twelve). Meg and I always go out to eat before conference and then to broadcast. I know, I know I can still do that just when it's the Women's broadcast but that will just remind me that I've gotten older (it's all about me:).
I got my list of books that I have to read for the Middle School Literary Committee that I'm on. Not to crazy about two of the three books. One, called Last Child in the Woods. So, far is about kids not playing outside, not in touch with nature. I don't know what 9th grade biology student is going to want to read it, I'm bored:) Tomorrow, Tay speaks in Sacrament on honesty.
Next week, pretty much the same as last week. Will just add a few fun things in because Tay and Jacob are home.
"Never give up, Never surrender!!"
Love ya, Ricki
Do you know what movie this quote is from? Hee, hee

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Last week was extra, extra busy. Sunday and Monday we enjoyed visiting with Chris' mom, dad, sister, brother-in-law, two nephews, and ma and pa's Chinese granddaughter. They came up to visit us on their way to Logan to take their Chinese granddaughter back to school (spring break over).
Tuesday, Megan had Disney Princess try-outs. While I was waiting for her I talked with other mothers there and found out some interesting things. Disney only does auditions in fifteen states (one girl had flown in from New York!). Found out about Walt Disney World University and how it works to go there. At this point all those auditioning (including Megan) have a job at Disney World, Land, or on one of the cruise ships. They are just wanting to be a prince or princess. If you don't make prince or princess you work at the attractions or concessions or wherever they assign you. Shuttle buses that take the kids to and from the grocery store once a week and shuttle buses that will take them to and from church. The women that I spoke with were all from different states (and I had been complaining about how far I had to drive:). We won't know for six to eight weeks how she did. She didn't feel to good about the dancing part. Meg told me that I better put Katie in dance now and not let her quit (like she did) so one day she can be a princess:) It was a very long day but we had a lot of fun (and I learned a lot). Came home to homework, scouts for Jacob, dinner and going to the grocery store to buy ingredients for teacher dinner.
Speaking of, Wednesday, fed the teachers (parent teacher conference),and Tay scouts. This is were it gets crazy- Rye and Meg had a track meet (while I was feeding teachers) in Syracuse. Chris went to the track meet where it was raining and very cold. Chris then brought Rye and Meg home before the meet was over because Rye had a choir concert. Rye quickly showered then Chris took him to the concert. I met up with them at the school. Chris looked awful!!! It was very hard on Chris to be out in the cold and rain. Hopefully, kids will always remember how their dad supported them even when he was very ill. Don't forget getting ready for St. Patrick's day. Making sure that everyone has green so they don't get pinched and call me crazy but I always give the teachers, bus driver (which Rye absolutely hates- giving the bus driver the gift, not the bus driver:)), and crossing guard a gift, which I hadn't finished putting together. Ahhhh. It was an extremely crazy day, one you hope doesn't happen very often. (I'm exhausted just typing it/remembering it:)
Thursday, Chris was still cold and exhausted from Wednesday. Katie and I went to the DMV to license Meg's car (now has UT plates). Having heard horror stories I packed "heavy" lots of treats and things to color. We went inside and there was no one there!!! They called my number just as the lady handed it to me. It took me longer to drive there then it did to get the plates. Katie was bummed that she didn't get to eat and play there:) Then Katie and I went home and made green jello, and started on all the other green food for dinner. We had our traditional "green" dinner. Corned beef and cabbage, green rolls, green milk, green mashed potatoes, green jello and for dessert green ice cream (choco chip mint). What we do to ourselves!! OK, what I do to myself hee, hee.
Friday, last day of school for Tay and Jacob for three weeks. Our family attended a friends wedding open house. She lost her husband two and a half years ago and he lost his wife less than a year ago. They will be joining two families - total twelve kids!!! I was hesitant to go. Too many feelings. When it was r turn to talk to them she started crying. She asked Chris to say "hello" to her husband and he asked Chris to say "hello" to his wife. I'm not sure how Chris is going to remember everyone that he is suppose to say "hello" too:). It was a hard evening, probably should have stayed home.
Saturday, Rye had a bball game, we did chores and then we went and saw the movie Rango. DO NOT go and see this movie with kids!!!! It is rated PG but they swear-ALOT!!!!! There is also a scene where he uses a bad phrase which we have all heard but the squawking of the hawk covers up the bad word. I was very disappointed in the movie. Enjoyed my popcorn and soda but that was it. Chris and I had a good discussion with kids after movie and how the swearing wasn't OK. After the movie we ended up at Chili's. Chris has had a craving for Chili's queso for a couple of days. I keep teasing Chris that he's like a pregnant lady he gets these cravings. Of course he tells me "I'm dieing, I get do what I want:)." Katie and I didn't eat anything, her and I ate a lot of popcorn. Later, I went to the grocery store and Chris helped Tay with his talk for Deacon's quorum, it was on Temples (Sacrament meeting next week-on honesty:). Chris is very good at writing talks.
Sunday, thank goodness a day of rest (for some:) went to church, home teacher came over and we just laid around. Finally:) The Lord knew we would need it.
This week isn't nearly as painful as last week. I will even have "helpers" for three weeks. Yeah, no unloading the dishwasher for me:) We have. . . Monday, FHE. Tues., eye doctor appointments and Jacob has scouts. Wed., track meet and Tay and Rye scouts. Thurs., orthodontist appointments. Frid., no school for anyone. I'm sure I am forgetting somethings (like carpool and math lab). I just keep reminding myself that someday when kids are all grown up I will miss these days - at least that's what older moms tell me:)
President Thomas S. Monson recently counseled: "Often we assume that the people around us must know how much we love them. But we should never assume; We should let them know...we will never regret the kind words spoken or the affection shown. Rather, our regrets will come if such things are omitted from our relationships with those who mean the most to us."
Hope you know we love ya!!
Love, Ricki

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Thursday, spent alllll day Prom shopping with Meg. She had a doctor's appointment and then decided that she would like to finish getting ready for prom instead of go back to school:) We had Chris and Katie meet us for lunch. Shopping is hard work.
Friday, Chris had a doctor's appointment to follow up on how he was feeling. He still feels rotten. He also decided that he was going to do the other chemo. He will start April 11th. He told doctor that we wouldn't do a PET scan before starting. I can't keep up with the boy!!:) I had my first mammogram. Not as bad as I had heard. Stinks turning 40!! After Chris and I's doctor appointments I took Meg to pick up her prom dress. She tried to change dresses!!!! I pacified her by putting a down payment on it for Senior Ball which is in May. I told her it wouldn't match her corsage (red flowers, silver and black ribbons). Dress silver and black. New dress she wanted HOT HOT pink and black - she will look gorgeous - IN MAY:) Then she made me take her to the mall to do "more shopping" she still needed accessories. I finally arrived home around 8:30pm. This prom thing is killing me:)
Today, was a great day! Started out eating breakfast with two wonderful friends. One lives in Vegas and came into town. Time got away from us and we realized we had been there for 3 1/2 hours!!!!!! (they like to talk - hee, hee) It was soooo fun. I am very lucky to have such wonderful friends. Love ya.
Came home and took Meg to get her hair done. Looked beautiful. She was very pleased. Started to rain before we left salon so I pulled car up as close to the door as I could and then walked her to the car with a piece of paper over her head :) Did I say I was going to be happy when prom was over? hee, hee. Came home she got ready. WOW!! is all I can say. Her date arrived in style - in a limo!!!! So, glad that his family (his name is Ben) and our family are friends. I told them to come over and take pictures. So, when the limo pulled up it was fun to see he and his sisters jump out:) Ben gave her a beautiful corsage - red flowers:) Ben had given me the agenda yesterday. He would arrive at 6 pm and that I was "allowed" to take pictures until 6:30 at which time the limo would leave:) We took TONS of pictures. They were both very good sports. Had video camera going and two cameras plus cell phone cameras going. Fun for the whole neighborhood-don't see a limo and two beautifully dressed people very often. From the "agenda" (I'll get more details in a couple of hours) Ben was taking her to the Roof in the Joseph Smith Memorial Building and then to the dance which is at the State Capital. FUUUUUNNNNN!!!!! Can't wait to hear all about it.
Also, grateful to Tay's scout leaders who took the troop to Clark Planetarium where they earned their astronomy merit badge. Way to go. Tay was very excited. Thanks guys:)
Meg has decided that she would like to work in Disney World for the summer so Tuesday, Meg is trying out to be a Disney princess. They are having auditions in Ogden. We think she would make a great Snow White:)
Even amid the sadness we continue to have wonderful times. Life is good:)
"To hope when life is going well is admirable. But to choose hope when surrounded by despair; that is extraordinary."
Love ya, Ricki

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Hard to believe but two years ago today Chris was having surgery. The whipple - something that would change our lives drastically. In fact last week when Chris was in the hospital we were only a couple of doors down from where we stayed for 9 days. March 3rd of last year was Chris' back surgery and the anniversary of Megan's SECOND car accident:) March 3rd was Chris' first night in the hospital. Told Meg to drive verryyyy carefully. Quick knock on wood it's been over six months since the last one!!!
Today, Chris, Katie and I went to a store. (Saw one of Chris' old employee's). Katie "tried" to throw a fit because I wouldn't buy her cheese balls. Thank goodness Chris didn't give in this time, he just went and bought her a drink instead:) He also picked up Rye and friends from middle school and took them to high school for track practice. I am trying to get Chris out of the house at least once a day. He is bored and very sad that he isn't at work. So, I say to all of you who are working - enjoy it:) Chris really misses it.
Love, Ricki

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Chris still continues to be in a lot of pain. His arms especially hurt. Right arm because of the mess up with the CT scan and his left because of the pick line. Today, he has kept himself awake all day not allowing himself to nap due to trying to get his body back on night/day schedule. Hospitals have a tendency to mess you up. Last night was CRAZY. Neither he nor I slept much. He paced around the house. Tossed, rolled, moaned and groaned, when he was in bed. Me being a light sleeper I didn't do well with this and frankly you know me I looovvveee to sleep in the middle of the bed so I had to get used to "being on my side." I did try to sleep on the couch but I didn't find it as comfortable as Chris does:) I can only hope tonight is better. I can honestly say that I am not a nice person (no wise cracks from the peanut gallery!) when I don't get enough sleep.
I left Chris for about 45 minutes to watch Katie today while I worked in Jacob's classroom. Then I asked him if he wanted run some "easy errands" with me:) He said "yes" so we went to the gas station first for a drink. Katie ended up getting a bag of cotton candy and an icee!!! Thanks Chris!! Drive up bank window, I dropped off dry cleaning and we all went into the grocery store (for a few items). Katie put pumpkin chocolate chip cookies in my cart. I took them out, she screamed and Chris bribed her with a princess book instead of cookies! Last time I take him to the store!!:) (or gas station!!:) My mom came over and watched Katie and Chris (hee, hee) while I went to the temple. Chris walked up the block to meet the boys after school. Chris also took Tay and Jacob to a used game store that they've been wanting to go to. What a nice dad:) Chris says that he feels like he is getting a sinus infection. Hope not. I do have two boys with yucky noses. Ahhh.
"It is our duty to be better today then we were yesterday, and better tomorrow than we are today." Elder Joseph Fielding Smith
Love ya, Ricki

Monday, March 7, 2011

Chris came home this afternoon. He looks terrible!! Tired and in pain. We picked up his pneumonia medicine. Way expensive! $10.00 a pill (that's r portion, pharmacy says r insurance paid a lot). Hopefully with a few days rest he can start to feel better. He slept as much as the "house" would let him. LOL. It was nice we ate dinner together, had FHE, read scriptures and had family prayer. Much easier then it has been the last couple of days.
I have missed my babysitter:) this morning Katie threw a royal fit because she didn't want to take the boys to school she wanted to stay home and watch tv. I took her kicking and screaming to the car. Ahhh.
We have a "normal for us" week. Saturday is the big day for Meg - Prom.
Hopefully, Chris will start feeling better soon. Thank you for all the prayers. We love ya.
Love, Ricki

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Chris walked around the floor today, took a shower:) and even watched TV (more like my Chris). Meg said that last night was very, very noisy due to a patient on the floor a couple of doors down from Chris that has a brain tumor. Not a lot of sleep going on. Lower CT scan showed that the spleen looked good (that's what they did scan for). He is off the heparin and is back to Lovenox. They are just trying to get rid of the pneumonia now. He is still in a lot of pain (no more pain in his throat). The pain is on the left side of his chest. Hurts when he breathes. Could be due to pneumonia or possibly cancer in his lung. The only way to know if the cancer is in his lung is to have a PET scan and Chris has told them he doesn't want one. "Doesn't care, he's going to die either way." He also decided that he isn't going to do the other chemo. He says that he is "ready to go," "tired of being in pain," "tired of this body," "ready to check out!!" I don't blame him I would want to go also. Pain ain't fun. My mom brought the kids up to the hospital so that we could read scriptures and say family prayer. Poor Chris slept through most of it:) My dad is spending the night with Chris tonight. Tomorrow will be easier for my mom - just Katie for most of the day. Pretty uneventful - Thank goodness:)
Love ya, Ricki

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Chris had another hard day. CT scan was hard on him - this was his third one in two days. He threw up a couple of times today but nurse thought it was because of all the contrast from the tests. He still continues to be in pain - chest and throat. He is only taking Tylenol for pain, doesn't want anything else, and DON'T ask him "why?" :) Hopefully tomorrow we will get results of today's scan. He did walk around the floor a couple of times today and he showered:)
I have to thank a friend who is going through her own pain but helped me out today. She helped Rye with his Spanish project for school. They had to cook a food from South America, take pictures and make a power point presentation all due Tuesday (Rye tends to wait til the last minute:) My sweet mother went and got the ingredients needed at the store and my friend helped Ryan. I asked him how it went and he said he had a great time and the whole family said the empanadas were really good. Thank you. Thank you. One very large stress off my shoulders because of two great women:)
Tonight is Megs last night sleeping at the hospital, tomorrow night my dad will take over. Megs got school. I appreciate her sleeping at the hospital so that I can come home and give other people attention and get a little sleep. I don't like thinking of him alone.
Love ya, Ricki
Chris is still in the hospital. Yesterday they did a CT scan (went much better). Found that he doesn't have a blood clot in his lung!!!!!! He does have one in each of his legs. He has a bad case of pneumonia. They will keep him on heparin due to the clots in his legs. Today, they are going to do a lower abdomen CT scan. He continues to be in a TON of pain. Very hard to breath and his throat is still "on fire." Yesterday, he slept most of the day. I know he is very ill when he doesn't go for walks around the floor, shower, or watch TV. Kids came up last night to see him and after thirty minutes he was starting to have alot of pain and asked me to take kids home. We said family prayer and left. Meg spent the night with him again last night. I asked Rye if he wanted a turn but he said "no," "he never wanted to go to hospital again" it has been verrrryyy hard on the kids - ALL of them. Rye and Tay are experiencing a lot of anger, and of course taking it out on the rest of us. I am feeling overwhelmed by their emotions and my own. Being pulled 6 different directions is not easy.
I have been shown many times in the last couple of days how much Heavenly Father loves each of us and is looking out for our family, by just simple acts that either others have done for us (neighbor came over and cleaned my bathroom - spotless- hasn't looked that good since we first moved in!!! and brought over her vacuum and had her son:) vacuum our house- mine is somewhat broken - sucked up to many Lego's:) a package from Chris' Brazilian friends- yum!!! Thank goodness he's in the hospital. I don't have to share, hee hee - just kidding:), visits, prayers from all of you (holding me together. prayed realllyyyyy hard today for patience and to be a good mother), biggest one - (don't laugh) but Rye is on the high school track team but is still in middle school, so he has to be picked up every day from ms and taken to hs for practice. It is a sacrifice because Tay and Jacob get out during that time and Katie doesn't like sitting in the car that long every day. So, when Chris stopped working it was his job to pick Rye up. Now, Thursday morning friend calls and says that her kid wants to be in track and can we carpool. What a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I didn't know then that Chris wouldn't be able to drive. I just feel very blessed, one less thing to have to work out. Now, we only drive 2 days a week instead of 5 and I'm sure that she would drive all 5 if we needed her to.
Yesterday, after spending the night at the hospital Meg came home and slept and will probably do the same thing today. She said that she didn't get much sleep because of nurses and Chris making a lot of painful sounding noises. Thursday night I was very scared to leave Megan at the hospital, just afraid of Chris dieing and that being Meg's last memories. I didn't fall asleep until around 1:30am then at 3 am Katie got sick and that was the end of my sleep:) I continue to remind my children that in the premortal existence we said that we would do this. Never said it would be easy but that we would learn and become better for it. We are sooo blessed to have the gospel to know that we can return and live with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ again. Chris once said to me, "We cry when someone dies, do you think that when we were in the premortal existence waiting for our turn to come to earth that when someone left (born) that we cried?" I believe that we probably did. Cried because we were excited for them and that we wanted them to continue to choose the right so that we could see each other again. I have a very strong testimony of this gospel. I know who I am, who I want to become and where I want to go. It isn't going to be easy. I have to exercise faith (which I'm not always good at - because I am a "control freak").
Just another "bump in the road" getting us ready for the "REALLY BIG bump in the road"
We love all of you and thank you from the bottom of our hearts for all that you are doing for our family.
Love ya, Ricki

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Just wanted to let you know that Chris is in the hospital. We went around 2 pm. His throat was killing him and he could hardly breath due to a blood clot that started hurting Monday. ER did ultrasound on legs (found blood clot), chest xray (found pneumonia in lower left lung), blood tests and tried to do a CT scan but hit an artery instead of a vein which caused TONS of pain. They decided not to try again because they just couldn't find any veins (and Chris said "no way"). They will try a different way to do the CT scan tomorrow. He is in sooooo much pain. He kept telling the nurses that pain level (out of ten - ten being the worst) was a nine!! The morphine wasn't doing enough to take away the pain. They believe that his throat is hurting because there are blood clots rubbing up and down his throat every time he breaths. But of course can't confirm that until CT scan is done. He is on a heparin drip to try and dissolve the clots. Megan is spending the night with him tonight. Chris had kids all come to hospital so that he could say "good bye" to them. He wants to go and says that he feels like it's time. Toooo much pain he says. I say just another bump in the road. He'll feel better soon.
Love, Ricki